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  THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOUR FACE

  Hazel Osmond lives in Northumberland with her husband and two children and has, for many years, been an advertising copywriter. In 2008, she won the Woman & Home short-story competition sponsored by Costa. She is also a keen amateur actor and has worked her way up from ‘maid who drops tray’, via Lady Macbeth, to performances at the Edinburgh Fringe. Her first novel Who's Afraid of Mr Wolfe? was shortlisted for the RNA's Romantic Comedy Novel of the Year Award 2012. She is currently writing her third novel.

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  Also by Hazel Osmond

  Who’s Afraid of Mr Wolfe?

  To Northumberland – huge skies, great views, big hearts

  CHAPTER 1

  Yes, the statue was definitely winking. Down came one of the Roman centurion’s silver eyelids and there was a twist of the head which made the plume on his helmet ripple. The little cluster of tourists gathered nearby gave a variety of squeals before they went back to taking photographs, snapping indiscriminately at the statue, the front of the Abbey, a guy hanging about with a dog on a piece of string and, sometimes, themselves.

  Mack, sitting a few yards away on a bench, felt a small finger poke his leg. ‘Why is that silver man winking at you?’

  He turned to look at the girl attached to the poking finger.

  ‘Don’t know, Gabi,’ he said with a shrug and went back to trying to work out whether under all that silver paint there was someone he knew.

  He was not surprised when his answer proved to be nowhere near good enough for Gabi and the poking finger was in action again.

  ‘Come on, Uncle Mack,’ she said, in a voice that reminded him very much of a talk-show host’s, ‘you can tell me.’

  ‘OK, I’ll come clean.’ He leaned into her. ‘He’s not really a Roman centurion: he’s a spy and I’m a spy and this is how we pass messages.’

  ‘Don’t fib. You’re not a spy, you look after Granny and you write particles—’

  ‘Articles.’

  She patted his leg, but did not acknowledge the correction. ‘Besides, spies have posh cars and lots of girlfriends.’ That seemed to conclude the debate as far as she was concerned, and he didn’t know if he felt like laughing or becoming intensely depressed about the way she had, with a four-year-old’s clarity and cruelty, boiled his life down to ‘Granny’ and ‘particles’. That did just about sum it up. She was definitely spot on about the lack of posh cars and girlfriends.

  He looked over at the centurion again and got another wink. There was a further wave of Euro squeals from the tourists who, Mack guessed, from the cut of their jeans and general glossiness, were Italian.

  He was mulling over how bizarre it was that a group of Italians was staring at a man pretending to be Roman, when the statue not only winked at him again, but did a little jig, which sent the tourists into giggling, retreating clumps. As they drifted back and regrouped, Mack wondered where they were off to next: Oxford? Stratford? Would all the places merge into one long blur of history and fiction when they got home? Jane Austen mixed up with Inspector Morse and Anne Hathaway?

  ‘Come on,’ he said, helping Gabi down from the bench, ‘let’s go and see what Silverus Maximus is up to. Your mum will be back soon.’

  ‘Mum and Fran and Granny,’ Gabi corrected him, and then added as if enthused by the idea, ‘How many teeth do you think Fran will have left?’

  ‘All of them, it’s only a check-up.’

  ‘And Granny, will they be able to mend the broken one?’

  Yes, ready for her to break a different one next time.

  ‘Should think so. Now, can I put your mittens on?’

  ‘They won’t fit you.’ She waved her hands at him to make sure he got her joke. With the chubbiness of the very young child still about them, they made him think of little, fat starfishes.

  He decided to drop the mitten idea and, as they set off over the flagstones, braced himself for the tide of questions that would be coming. It was one of the many things he loved about Gabi, her ability to ask questions that made him look at the world in a new way, but sometimes they fried his brain. Particularly the animal-related ones. Today she was interested to know whether the dog on the piece of string knew it should really have a lead and if it did, how would that make it feel – sad? Or free? And that pigeon with a ring round one leg, did that mean it was married? And if it was, where was Mrs Pigeon?

  Mack knew it could have been worse: she could have asked him why some of the angels on the front of the Abbey were falling from the ladders they were meant to be climbing. He didn’t want to think about that. Every time he passed them they reminded him of his own spectacular fall, although that hadn’t been off a ladder; more off a career, out of a revolving door and on to a pavement.

  Leaving the marital status of pigeons behind, they reached the makeshift plinth, mingled with the Italians and looked up at the centurion. There had been a certain amount of artistic licence employed in the creation of his uniform, which not only featured the regulation breastplate and a sword held aloft in a ‘Forward to victory’ way, but also something that in a previous life had probably been a tigerskin rug, but was now a cloak, thanks to the addition of a gold-coloured chain and clasp. Mack hoped it provided some protection from the cold bite in the air, otherwise under all that silver it was probable that the centurion’s legs were blue. Hard, standing on a wintery plinth in Bath, when you were used to the seductively warm breezes of Rome.

  He saw the centurion’s eyes shift his way, the whites looking sludgy against all that silver. Yes, definitely something familiar about the face.

  ‘Worked it out yet?’ the silver lips whispered, barely moving, and then the centurion jumped down off the plinth, causing a huge flurry of excitement. The sword was lowered on to the flagstones, and Mack felt Gabi cling on to his hand more tightly and tuck herself behind his legs.

  ‘Show over, show over,’ the centurion said loudly, making clapperboard motions with his silver hands and using the ‘for the deaf’ tone that has endeared the British to other countries for centuries. The Italians slowly peeled away, some dropping coins in the tub at the base of the plinth, others pointedly looking anywhere but the tub.

  ‘Peter Craster,’ the centurion said with another of his winks before taking off his helmet. Bizarrely, the hair under it was also sprayed silver. He handed Mack the helmet and then stooped down to pick up the plastic tub, and Mack saw that Peter was from the Roman legion that favour
ed Y-fronts over boxers.

  His mind scrambled to fit a character to the name and came up with a rather posh boy from school, one of the rugger crowd. Ten years ago, which was probably the last time he’d seen him, the guy had been heading for an economics degree at Warwick.

  ‘Of course,’ Mack said. ‘Sorry, didn’t recognise you, what with all that paint and the um … the uniform. It’s been a while.’

  Peter Craster was picking through the coins, transferring them from the tub to a leather purse he had produced from under the tigerskin cloak. ‘Recognised you straight away.’ There was the wink again. ‘Bet you’re surprised to see me like this?’

  What, painted silver and dressed as a centurion? No, natural career progression for an economist.

  Mack was failing to come up with a polite reply when Peter said, ‘Of course you’re surprised; to tell you the truth, so am I. Went to Warwick, got a job in the City afterwards, but you know …’ Mack guessed his wasn’t the only career that had taken a nosedive.

  ‘Thing is,’ Peter lowered his voice, ‘only got the bullet a few months ago and decamped back here, but it’s turned out to be a godsend. Bit of a goldmine.’ Mack looked at the leather purse, and Peter must have got his meaning because, stowing it away, he laughed. ‘No, no. I don’t mean standing here like a tit. I’m just filling in today: one of my lads is having his varicose veins done. Plays havoc standing up on one of those things for hours not moving.’

  ‘One of your lads?’

  ‘Yup, collective noun really – I have women too. About twenty people in all on the books now.’ Peter’s silver hands were constantly moving as he described the building of his own little Roman empire. ‘They were just crying out for someone to lead them, you see. I mean you can make little bits and pieces standing around all day, it’s still a steady earner, but the real money’s in events. Getting hired out for parties, book launches, that kind of thing. Not just centurions, of course.’ He laughed as though such a narrow specialisation was ludicrous. ‘Got all the Regency period covered, tourists go mad for that, and Mr Darcy’s a huge hit at weddings.’ Mack had a vision of Fitzwilliam Darcy appearing in a wet shirt just as the vicar said, ‘Does anybody know of any just cause …’

  ‘Tudors, Normans, Victorians,’ Peter enthused, ‘and now we’re branching into lookalikes. Film stars, pop stars.’ He whistled. ‘You should see my Gaga.’

  Mack felt rather than heard Gabi giggle and said quickly, ‘Glad it’s turned out well for you …’ He trailed off as he became aware that Peter Craster was frowning at him in a way that threatened to make his paint peel.

  ‘So, you just back here on holiday?’ he asked. ‘Went into journalism didn’t you? London? My mother said something about showbiz gossip? Must be—’

  ‘That didn’t work out. Just freelancing now.’ Mack handed the helmet back to Peter, hoping it would serve as a full stop to the conversation.

  ‘Didn’t work out?’ Peter asked, hint untaken.

  Mack wondered what would happen to Peter’s paint job if he told him the truth.

  It’s like this, Peter; I came home early to find my editor, a bastard called O’Dowd, in bed with my girlfriend. So, in revenge, I dropped his home phone number into an article about a man who was impotent. No one spotted it until the next day, when prank callers began making obscene phone calls to his wife, and the other papers took to calling him ‘Mr Floppy’. That’s when he went ballistic, threatened to remove my testicles with a hot spoon and made sure I would never work on a national paper again.

  ‘Artistic differences,’ Mack settled for, easily fudging the truth. When Peter looked as though he might have follow-up questions Mack added in a weary tone, ‘Happened about three years ago.’

  ‘Oh, that’s hard.’ Peter was all concern now. ‘Especially when you’ve got little ones.’

  ‘No, Gabi is my sister’s – Tess – remember her?’

  ‘All the same.’ Suddenly Peter’s arm was round Mack’s shoulder. ‘Might be able to help: you’d be a shoo-in for a pirate lookalike. Earring, eyepatch, let your hair grow longer. Can you do stubble?’ Mack was unable to confirm what his achievements with facial hair were before a business card was produced. He lifted it from silver fingers.

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  Let us be the still life and soul of your party

  Peter’s face brightened as much as a face already painted silver could. ‘There’s plenty of work out there, especially if you’re prepared to do hen nights.’ He darted a look towards Gabi, who had partially re-emerged from behind Mack’s legs. ‘You’re a good-looking guy. The women would want to know where the silver paint ends, if you get my drift.’ The wink got another outing before Peter was all businesslike again. ‘And now, if you’ll excuse me. Got a call earlier from Lord Nelson. Coachload of Scandinavians heading this way, stopover en route to Stonehenge.’ The helmet was hurriedly rammed back on. ‘Need to mop them up before they get to that Ancient Briton in woad round by the Parade Gardens.’ His paint puckered. ‘Not one of mine.’

  Within seconds, the fierce centurion on the plinth was back, only unfreezing for one final wink and a mouthed, ‘Give me a call,’ before the sword was once more brandished aloft.

  Mack imagined himself standing up there like a metallic, ersatz Johnny Depp and remembered the day he’d actually interviewed the real one. He expected some form of intense emotion to sweep over him at that: regret possibly, or the urge to rip Peter Craster’s business card into pieces, knock him off his plinth and beat him with one of his replica sandals.

  ‘It’s a very kind offer,’ he heard himself say. ‘I’ll have a think about it.’

  He was uncertain whether his response was due to a gradual mellowing over the last three years or the worry that he was up to his ears in debt and a job offer was a job offer.

  He was stuffing Peter’s business card in the pocket of his jeans when someone said ‘Boo!’ behind him and, as he turned, he felt Gabi let go of his hand.

  ‘Mummy,’ she yelled, a whirl of arms and legs as she threw herself towards Mack’s sister, ‘we’ve been talking to this statue and he wants Uncle Mack to be a pirate and show hens where his silver bits end.’

  He wished he could have got his phone out in time to capture his sister’s expression. His mother simply looked at the centurion, looked at Mack and said, laconically, ‘A pirate? How lovely, you could use some of those skills you picked up on that paper.’

  He felt his mouth already forming the shape of some cutting reply when the pleading look on Tess’s face held him back. Instead, he turned to Fran. ‘So, Frangipan, how are the teeth?’ In reply he got a thumbs-up and a huge smile that suggested she still had a full set. There was a sticker saying ‘Star Patient’ on her coat.

  ‘Mum’s are OK too,’ Tess said, looking nervously at Phyllida. ‘Temporary crown. So … everyone set? Let’s go find the car.’

  Slowly they cut across the Abbey churchyard, along the front of the registry office and the Market before reaching the underground car park. Later in the year, they would have heard all the world’s languages on their journey as the tourists descended on Bath to pick it clean of Roman and Austen memorabilia, but today it was mainly English, and much of it had a soft, Bathonian burr.

  The girls walked ahead, and as he looked at them, Mack felt that he was seeing time-lapse photographs of the same person: blonde hair, wise blue eyes, a lower lip that was slightly fuller than the upper one. Whereas he and Tess looked nothing like each other, hadn’t even done so when they were younger. He glanced at her now as she walked, letting Phyllida lean on her arm. She had their mother’s blue eyes and fair skin tone; he had their father’s brown eyes and darker looks. He’d also got his father’s messy hair gene, whereas Tess’s blonde hair, a shade or two darker than both her daughters’, stayed exactly where it was put. In fact everything about Tess was neat – even the green scarf she was wearing today did not hang like some kind of forgotten piece of lettuce in the salad crisper, but was tied
in a just-so, loose knot.

  At the car park, the ever-practical Tess got Phyllida settled in the front seat of the car and the girls strapped in the back before even attempting to pay at the machine. Or perhaps she wanted to talk to Mack on his own. He followed her.

  ‘Did Phyllida get a “Star Patient” sticker too?’ he asked with a sardonic laugh.

  He was pleased to feel Tess link her arm through his and give it a squeeze. ‘Not quite, and anyway, I’m thinking of awarding you one for not rising to her “pirate” comment.’

  ‘But she did behave herself?’

  ‘Uh huh. Told the dentist she’d broken her tooth on a piece of hard toffee.’

  ‘Not on a piece of hard pavement after five hours in the pub?’

  ‘Well, it’s one way to kerb her drinking.’

  ‘Yeah, at least falling on the pavement keeps her out of the gutter.’

  They were employing the light and cheerful tone they habitually used when talking about their mother, but Mack knew that if he turned and looked at Tess closely right now, she would have the same expression on her face as he had. They called it their ‘standing by the gallows’ look and Mack was certain it got handed out to anyone with a heavy drinker in the family, along with buckets of patience and an endless supply of hope.

  They had reached the head of the queue and Tess fed the ticket into the machine, followed rapidly by a stream of coins. Mack added one or two as his contribution. When Tess had the ticket back in her hand, they walked as slowly as possible back to the car and, because Tess looked uncharacteristically morose, he gave her a playful nudge with his hip.

  ‘Look, I know we’re in another one of her dips, but she’s always pulled herself round before; she’ll do it again. And at least this time I’m here, just upstairs. It’s not like before when you and Joe had to keep going round to check on her.’

  ‘I know, I know. But it’s hard on you.’

  ‘My turn, Tess.’

  ‘That’s what Joe thinks,’ she said with a grin, and Mack had no problem imagining just what the straight-down-the-line Joe would have said. The phrases ‘Now he’s stopped skulking around’ and ‘Pulling his weight’ would have featured largely. There was no dissembling with Joe, what you saw was what you got. Hard to remember that when Tess first took up with him, the all-knowing, arrogant Mack he was then figured she could do a lot better than a guy learning how to be a joiner. Now Joe had his own business and had proved to be a bit of a star on the husband-and-Dad front, while Mack had what? Granny and particles.